I am....

... hardly blogging anymore.  I'm too afraid to open my brain up for all the scary stuff that might pour out.  I can't stop it once it does, so let's just keep it all shut in there for now, shall we?  Meanwhile, I borrowed this from another blog because I thought it was pretty clever and unusual.  Or maybe I'm just easily impressed....

i am: finding that if you fake cheerfulness long enough, you can attain it.
i think: way too much for my own good.
i know: great things are about to happen.  (my fortune cookies said so)
i want: peace.
i have: amazing people in my life.
i wish: i had all the answers.
i hate: limbo.
i miss: my grampsy, but you already knew that.
i fear: talking to people.
i feel: unsettled, but very lucky somehow.
i hear: high school musical songs in my head.
i smell: everything incredibly well.
i crave: chips and salsa and/or guacamole.
i search: for jobs constantly.
i wonder: why the IRS hates me so.
i regret: often, though i try not to.
i love: my children and family.
i ache: in my shoulder from doing a cartwheel without stretching. (30 hurts!)
i care: too much about what people think of me
i always: think i sound like an asshat when i talk.
i am not: adequately medicated.
i believe: my children keep me sane and insane simultaneously.
i dance: not enough.  i miss it terribly.
i sing: in the car with the girls.
i don't always: email people back promptly.  bad ashley.
i fight: with myself.  i hate fighting with anyone else.
i write: in my head CONSTANTLY.
i win: word games.  i love my words.
i lose: track of time quite easily.
i never: thought i would find love this amazing.
i confuse: other people with my unecessarily large words.
i listen: better than i talk.
i can usually be found: doing laundry, chauferring children, or on the computer.
i am scared: of talking to people.  still.
i need: to win the lottery, but i'd settle for just finding a job.
i am happy about: my wedding in June and seeing all my friends and family.

You?

edited to change "happiness" to "cheerfulness".  clearly i am very happy.... i'm just not always all that cheerful.  there's a difference :)